Release Date: November 18, 2019
SynopsisMy fiancée’s death almost killed me. It’s been three years and I still can’t move on. Not with life. And definitely not with love. GoodreadsExcerpt
“She’s got a great ass, doesn’t she?” Remi’s voice whispers in my ear.
“I wasn’t looking at her ass, Remi. Fuck off.”
“Promises, promises.” She clucks her tongue at me and gives me a once-over. “You look like shit. Luckily, I brought you something to change into. And if you are a good boy, maybe I will share my pre-party tequila shots.”
“I don’t need to change.”
She laughs. “Oh honey, not only do you need to change,” she gestures at my body. “But you need to change.”
“Cute.”
“Here.” She thrusts a bag into my arms. “Put this on and make us proud.”
“What is it?” I look inside the bag and see a brightly colored shirt reminiscent of Magnum PI. “No.” I push the bag back at her.
“Would you quit being such a fucking pussy? It’s embarrassing.”
“If I’m such an embarrassment, then you won’t mind if I leave.” I turn to do just that.
She grabs my arm to stop me. “Oh, not an embarrassment for me. For you. And for Kat’s memory. That she loved such a grouchy self-righteous douche.”
“That’s low, Remi. Even for you.”
“You have no idea how low I can go, cupcake. Now go change your fucking clothes and stop acting like such a dick.”
I grab the bag and head for the restroom.
“Thank you!” she calls. I flip her off over my shoulder.
“You still suck at that.”
She’s right, I do. I can’t flip people off, my fingers just look funny. But the gesture makes me feel better anyway.
The board shorts fit fine, as do the flip-flops. But the shirt is tight around my arms and chest. I’ve been working out a lot. Anything to try to keep a handle on all this anger inside me. Otherwise I just feel like I will snap and do something stupid. And I’m almost positive I’ve hit my stupid quota for this lifetime. It’s why I'm on desk duty at work.
Again.
Good news is, if I flex at all, I’m going to Hulk out of this shirt and pop a button or two. Knowing that it’s Chance’s shirt, and that my chest is now more built than his, makes me smirk with satisfaction. Because he’s a cop and I’m a firefighter, and that competition is always waiting in the sidelines to rear its head. I ball up my other clothes in the same bag and head back out to join the others.
Remi is waiting for me in the near empty hall. She leans up and kisses me on the cheek. “Thank you.”
I nod.
“I don’t do this to torture you, you know,” she says. “I do it because I need you to be happy. I can’t handle this.” She motions to me.
I cock my head and raise my brows. Even though I’m sure I know what she will say.
“I promised her, Brad. Promised her when she was—”
“I know, Remi. Jesus.”
“No, you don’t, listen to me.” Her voice breaks and she pauses for a moment before continuing. “Yes, you know I promised her we’d watch out for you. And you haven’t let us do that. It’s been three years, Brad. Three years without my best friend. That’s a long fucking time. How do you think I feel when something makes me happy and she’s not here with me to enjoy it? I have so many fanfuckingtastic things in my life. And I want to be happy. But it’s hard when all I do is miss her. And then I look at you, and you have nothing to make you smile. And I can’t live like this. I can’t live knowing that I’m moving on without her and you aren’t. So, even if you won’t do this for you, do it for me. Do it so I can be a better mom to your God-kids. And a better wife to your friend.” She wipes at the tears rolling down her cheeks.
I take a minute to look at her. Really look at her. She looks amazing, as usual. But she’s right, there is a satisfaction about her I’ve never really paid attention to before. A contentment that becoming a wife and a mother has brought her. And she is the last person any of us ever thought that would happen to.
But along with that is a sadness, when she talks about Kat, it’s just not as prevailing as the other emotions. I pull her into my arms. “I’m sorry, Rem.” I clear my throat. “I forget I’m not the only one who lost her. I keep waiting to wake up and have it be better, for me to feel better, and it never happens.”
“I know,” she says into my chest. “All we can do is keep waking up each day and moving forward. Keep living. And on the days that its harder than others, we remember this is what she wants. As awful as it feels, she wants us happy and living life the best way we can.” She steps back out of my embrace.
I wipe at the tears on my cheeks and pinch at the bridge of my nose to get them to stop, then clear my throat again. “Thank you, Remi.”
“I love you, B. You know that, right?”
“Love you too, Rem.”
She kisses my cheek and turns to head down the hall toward the reception area and check-in for the auction. I stay put, trying to collect my thoughts enough to convince myself this is the right thing for me to do. That my promise to Kat to live my life, somehow balances out the betrayal I feel over doing so.
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