***** THIS PROLOGUE CONTAINS DISTRESSING CONTENT. IT IS ONLY SUITED FOR READERS OVER 18. *****
ALSO CONTAINS M/M, M/M/F, M/F AND F/F SCENES!!!
My uncle raped me. I was 10 years old when it started.
At 13 he told me I was no longer wanted because I had started to develop.
At 16 I was ready to kill him.
Today, I’m broken.
Today, I only breathe to survive.
My name’s Sergeant Major Ryan Jenkins and today, I’m ready to tell you my story.
** STAND ALONE **
Review by Brittany
First off, a general warning. This book is not intended for those readers that are uncomfortable with subject matter pertaining to child molestation and rape.
Now that that’s out of the way, I’m going to share a bit about myself, so you can understand a bit about my reading experience with this book. Yes, as you can see from the warning, Margaret McHeyzer wrote about one of the most taboo topics
ever, sexual abuse on children. I saw teasers for her book one day, and even though I had been a victim of child molestation when I was younger, I decided to read this.
Yes, it brought back horrible memories that I’d rather forget, but sometimes it’s okay and good to remember. To remember how I’m still alive and I made it through that horrible time. I finished the book, happy with how it ended and how Margaret handled that subject matter. Okay, again, depressing stuff out of the way, let me tell you a little bit about this book.
Sergeant Major Ryan Jenkins is a divorced father of one. He was also the
victim of extreme sexual abuse as a child. Even though he’s in his upper
thirties, he’s finding it hard to deal with the memories from his past. Mason
Carter, star actor and Ryan’s best friend, is in an unconventional relationship with a Domme named Stella Hartley. One night, when Mason is staying over at Ryan’s house, Ryan discovers he has sexual feelings towards Mason. And when he meets Stella, he realizes those feelings extend towards her as well.
While Mason is out of town, Ryan and Stella start a relationship. Stella helps Ryan overcome his anger from his past through the D/s relationship. Mason sometimes joins in, but eventually, he finds a Domme that allows him to have the same relationship that Ryan and Stella found together.
This book was really good. It obviously needs an editor to run through that, but that’s why she’s got me. *grins* I love the fact that Margaret wrote about such a taboo subject. I love the fact that reading it allowed me to think about what happened to me as a child. (Weird, I know, but it’s cathartic to think a bout it some times.)
I give Margaret five stars for writing a novel that is full of pain, love,
and hot, hot sex. I love these darker romances, especially those filled with
BDSM scenes. I loved watching Ryan progress from a scared, angry man, to one that is smiling about his future.
The pain that one experiences from sexual abuse at a young age really never goes away. You can stop thinking about it, but there are certain things that will always trigger memories. The people that are the ones carrying out the abuse, are sick.
In this book, Ryan’s uncle got what was coming to him. I think often about my uncle, my abuser, and if he’s getting the same treatment that Ryan’s uncle received.
Anyways, enough about that. Great job on this novel, Margaret! I loved it and am going to go scour Amazon for more works by you! Five stars!
About Margaret McHeyzer
I don't do 'normal'.
I've found that the more I write, the more I like being different to other authors. I write in first person, and I love to challenge a reader.I take the normal and switch it around.
For me, I really enjoy getting a reaction from a reader. So if I can evoke an emotion (regardless of if it's the emotion the reader wants) then I figure that I've done my job as an author I want to be.
I really quite revel in taking people out of their comfort zones and pushing them to read something different.
My genre of writing is, well quite frankly, where ever my mind goes. I won't label myself because I don't like sticking to one genre.
My goal with writing is just to take people away from whatever is going on in their lives, even if it's only for a split second.
I'm a go with the flow sort of person and don't really take a course of action to get where I am going. I live in the moment and don't usually worry about tomorrow because whatever life is due to bring me, I'll be happy to accept.
I love my family and friends and will help anyway I can if someone needs it. I really don't like people that are nasty just because they can be, I don't believe that's necessary, I mean life's hard enough as it is!I hope you enjoy my books, I've had a hoot writing them. There's more to come.....
Til next time