Some Day Soon
-- EXCERPT: “Don’t do that,” I say. “Don’t shut me out.” “Go away,” she warns. “No,” I say. “Talk to me, Sammy.” “I can’t!” she yells at me. I step toward her, lowering my voice as emotion threatens to crack my voice. “I can’t help if you keep fucking pushing me away.” “Stop it,” she spits the words. “I’m not going to leave you,” I say, holding onto her hands before she rips them away. “Nothing you say to me, nothing you do is going to convince me you aren’t worth it.” Her chest heaves as tears stream down her cheeks. Her lips are parted, ready to fight back, ready to tell me how wrong I am, how I won’t understand. This moment is do or die, leave it all on the table. I take another step toward her, and crush my lips against hers, showing her how I feel before I tell her. “I love you,” I pant against her lips. “I think I’ve loved you since the first day I met you when you wore white to my sister’s fucking wedding.” I laugh. “I fucking love you, Sammy girl. Don’t push me away. You can shut the world out. Just leave me in this one with you.” She leaves her forehead pressed against mine, our noses breathing in the smell of one another. “I can’t,” she whimpers, swallowing down the building emotion. “I can’t love you, Noah. I can’t risk losing you.” Her voice cracks with each word. My ears ring as though a bomb has detonated near us, and I guess, in some metaphorical sense, one has. “You lose all the fucking time when you push everyone away,” I say, my voice cracking under the pressure of each word. “Isn’t it worth trying to stay for once? To work through it rather than shut me out?” “I’ll never be what you need,” she says. “I’ll never be able to give myself to you completely, to trust you fully.” “Bullshit,” I snap. “It’s not bullshit. You made a mistake ever thinking you could change me.” She sighs before hammering the final nail in our coffin. Her eyes locked on mine full of honesty and meaning. “I was your biggest mistake. You’re just too stubborn to acknowledge it.”
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Sue G.
5/28/2023 09:51:08 am
This sounds fun.
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